Well...lately I've been on an emotional roller coaster. I know most if not all of you have been there/done that before. If you haven't don't worry you will eventually. It's that sort of...I don't really know where I should go from here type thing. There's a girl I pretty much would do anything for. I'd die for her and never think twice about doing it. She wants nothing to do with me, at least not like I wish she did. If she ever wanted to be with me I'd jump at the chance to make her the happiest woman alive. She'd be spoiled rotten too ha. But, like the hopeless romantic that I am, I went and fell for someone I know I'll never have. See...I have this problem with liking straight women. Yeah I know it's like the number one rule or something..."don't fall for a straight girl" but I couldn't help it. Can't help who you fall for. At least that's what I believe.

So that said, I apologize for any...darker/less happiness, flowers and sunshine type poetry I may post here. None of it is any good, I'm just writing it to get it all out instead of keeping stuff inside like I normally do. Doing that tears me up inside and I just become even more of a mess soooo...better out than in I suppose. Most of it will probably get deleted soon anyway. Also, since I've been in this mood lately I'm postponing any writing for KIGO. I don't wanna take it down an alley that I normally wouldn't take it. God forbid I ruin it...I'd be so pissed. As I'm sure you all would be too.

Worry not for me my friends, all will work out someday.
I hope you all are doing alright and I pray you may all find sunshine when your skies are grey.

-LP-